Life's a Journey

This business of blogging is quite intimidating. It's essentially a diary, where you write your most personal thoughts and feelings. The difference being you publish it for others to see. How do you keep it unedited and raw? I've promised myself that if I'm going to do this, I'm all in. My goal is to keep it real.

My reasons for creating the blog is two-fold. First, I promised myself that on this deployment I wouldn't isolate myself. I tend to be a private person who does not let people into my "circle of trust" easily. I internalize everything and avoid emotion during a stressful deployment. Next thing I know I'm fifteen to twenty pounds heavier and angry at myself for it. On Jarod's last deployment to Bagram, I realized about two months into him being gone what I was doing. I didn't know how to stop it, so I began a forty day Daniel Fast in search of a vision, knowledge, peace, and to break generational strongholds.  I also hired a personal trainer and began running. I needed to gain my physical strength back as I was working on my mental strength. To be honest, losing some weight only helped the situation. This deployment I've decided to add blogging as an outlet. I'll let you know how it goes.

Second, I wanted to give others an inside look to what this life is all about. Deployments are a reality for my family, for any military family. Other people have a hard time fathoming a life where their significant other is gone 6-12 months at a time. I want to share the moments that don't make the news. Deployments are so much more than the send-offs and homecomings.

It has been hard for me to take the first step and commit to this process of writing and publishing my thoughts through the deployment. Jarod has been gone for almost a month and I'm just now ready to publish what I've been writing. For that reason, over the next week or so I'll have quite a few entries. And so begins this journey...